Radioactive Girl is surprised by love

What must you have thought?
When I closed my eyes, it was
To protect myself.

It must have been the impact of you
For my heart suddenly reached critical mass
And I felt like I was going go nuclear, immediately
My coal-darkness shattering –
The blooming burst of it, the ravaged atoms going haywire,
Leaving radioactive waste all over your bed
Repercussions lasting for ages

And the saddest kind memory, which is darkness, into light,
Into darkness.

Then, timid, having to skulk out in the morning
Without even a puff of gusto left in me
And you smiling faintly as I go, with glowing flecks in your hair
Like daytime fire-flies.

Did you even notice?
I closed my eyes tight but could still see you
And my insides turned to green glass.